i didnt sleep much last night. it was really hot (my fever went way up) and i was uncomfortable in my bed. so i started thinking about a bunch of stuff, mainly about college. i started thinking about my laptop and how excited i was about moving all my music and pictures over to it. well then i started thinking about how i needed to put all the software for my camera and ipod on it, and then i realized that the CDs weren't in the right spot by the computer, which means my dad must have moved them. so then i started freaking out and worrying that i wouldnt be able to find them. anyways, i searched frantically for them for about 45 minutes, and then i found them in my room by all my old bio stuff. so then i went to sleep.

today was depressing. the ASP crew got back last night, and today at church i was really sad because i was left out of a great trip. secretly, about 10% of me wanted their trip to turn out like mountain TOP since i couldn't go. of course, the fact that i thought that makes me feel even worse. i went out to lunch with them after church and i just got shoved down to the end of the table with brian and eric, the only people at lunch besides me who didnt go. everyone else just had a great time reminiscing and laughing up all their inside jokes. man i wish i could have gone SO BADLY. seriously.

was it the right decision for me to go to JH3 instead of ASP? would i have gotten mono if i went to ASP instead? would the trip have sucked if i had been there?

apparently when i have mono all i do is worry